Time passes by even though....

My how time has flown. I sat down at this computer to check out Busters blog and realize that I haven't written for quite some time. I would love to be able to set and really write but I can never find the time to enter into my own little world. It seems crazy to think that it has been a year already. It makes me feel ashamed that besides my constant thoughts of Sharon,my life is pretty much the same. I miss her like crazy, but my morning routine is still the same and my day is still hectic as heck. My life has gone on. I can't image how Roy and the kids are taking day to day, I don't want to even think of it. The season is going to be hard. I can't hardly get into the spirit, but at the same time I envy Sharon's opportunity of experiencing Christmas first hand. Some days it is hard to get out of bed but I guess everyone has days like that. Thank God for my husband and kids. Even though I would love to get away sometimes, I also miss them like crazy when I am away from them for even a couple of hours. I also have days when I wonder exactly who I am and what in the heck am I doing with my life. I am sure of my spirituallity, but I know that it needs help to grow and learn. Some days I am lacking horribly and some days I do nothing but pray. I hope the Blessed Mother doesn't mind my bellyaching, because Lord knows she hears it alot. I don't mean to, but I need to vent alot and she listens so..........
God Bless You! later........Polly

HAPPY 1 BIRTHDAY!!!

Well as I sit here and look back on the day, I am very tired. Just as the twins birthday dinner had begun, Noah smashed his hand in the toy box and we were off to the hospital. Thank goodness they glued instead of stitched it. By the time we got home he was too tired to even look at his toys. Claire on the other hand had a ball. I can't believe how big they are. All the babbles and coos are turning into partly recognizable words. They both have developed quite a temper and do not care at all to let it show. I was told that the first year with multiples is all about survival. We not only survived, we have treasured it as well...........later...Polly

New experiences!!

well the last time I wrote, I was getting ready for the next day thinking same ole'-same ole'. Things were not the same. Somewhere we have picked up a stomach bug. First Bryan had an attack of the chucks and runs then Claire vomited for 24 hours straight only to pass it on to Noah and now Sam is making his stomach home to this bug. I am trying desperately hard to ignore the cramping going on in my own tummy, and praying that I did not unknowingly hand it off to the next unsuspecting family. We have stayed well away from the new baby in our family for fear of an unwelcome visitor in their house.I know how I feel with a sick 1 year old, I can't image doing this with a 2 wk old. Hopefully my major problem is lack of sleep and exhaustion from holding 2 at once. Thank God for good husbands, because I have no doubt that I would be in a lot worse shape if not for him..... Later... Polly

Long time -no write

My how time flies! The twins will turn 1 in 2 wks, and my they are getting so big. There are so many times that I think i need to write down what they are doing but I never do. They love the cabinets. I let them have 1 so they can climb into it and I find them hiding there all the time. Claire is such a character. She dearly loves her daddy. Noah dearly loves Wheel of Fortune. He will watch it for hours. They are still totally opposite and thank God for that because I don't think I could handle them if they were in to the same things at the same time. Now I just run from one thing to the other. Looking back, I can't image having just 1 of them. There have been a few times when things got crazy, but those smiles and kisses somehow make the wild days disappear!!! Later.....Polly

Early morning misery

Well as I sit here the clock hits 4:33 am and my little son is playing in the toy box! I held him in bed for about 1 hour, but he would have no more of it. So while he wears himself out again I will type.
It has been quite a while since I sat down to ponder things and alot of milestones have past. Both babies are toddling EVERYWHERE. They both have teeth and they both love to climb. Noah loves baseballs and trucks, Claire has her first babydoll that she drags around. They are 10 months old and I can't stand to think of them growing up and leaving this age. I think the twin thing is harder now because its hard to hold, nurse and comfort 2 crying toddlers. They are starting to play with each other more, but they are totally different from each other. I am mentally and physically wearing out. I need a solid nights sleep and adult conversation without fighting children and wailing babies. I was told about a job offer the other day, and missed the freedom that comes with that, until I saw my babies smile. Then I was ready to do it all over. Later......Polly

Cool Air!!

As bad as I hate to see summer go, the cooler air is nice! The babies are liking going outside and I am ready to get outside myself. We still have hot afternoons but this is the time I actually don't mind getting up early and setting with a cup of coffee and listening to the quiet. I am looking so forward to the family get together this weekend. I pray it all goes well. I need the closeness to my family. Claire is fussing gotta run... later ....Polly

Time Passes By!

Where does the time go? A few days ago we had to buy new carseats for the babies. They have outgrown their infant seats. Claire has a small tooth sticking up from the bottom gums and Noah is taking "practice steps". They love the bathroom and are always peeking to see if someone forgot o shut the door. They have conquered the kitchen cabinets and love to pull the shelves out of the dishwasher, especially if Kayla is trying to fill it! She gets so uptight about that and they love to hear her fuss. We have "dropped " the bottle, but they still nurse, thank God!! Sippy cups of tea is such a treat and it goes great with puffed Cheetos. They are not the only ones taking strides to grow up. Sam loves pre-k. I think he would go every day if we could afford it. Bryan reads so well and he is going to pick things up easily. James seems to have adjusted well to being held back. I watch him on the playground from my office window and he actually has friends that want to play with him. Jon is in the middle school. For the first time he is having to study and he is not very happy with that. Kayla ia a freshman and looks like a senior. Thank God her maturity level isn't as far ahead as her body is! All my babies are starting to show my age. I wish time would slow down a little........ later......Polly