Time passes by even though....

My how time has flown. I sat down at this computer to check out Busters blog and realize that I haven't written for quite some time. I would love to be able to set and really write but I can never find the time to enter into my own little world. It seems crazy to think that it has been a year already. It makes me feel ashamed that besides my constant thoughts of Sharon,my life is pretty much the same. I miss her like crazy, but my morning routine is still the same and my day is still hectic as heck. My life has gone on. I can't image how Roy and the kids are taking day to day, I don't want to even think of it. The season is going to be hard. I can't hardly get into the spirit, but at the same time I envy Sharon's opportunity of experiencing Christmas first hand. Some days it is hard to get out of bed but I guess everyone has days like that. Thank God for my husband and kids. Even though I would love to get away sometimes, I also miss them like crazy when I am away from them for even a couple of hours. I also have days when I wonder exactly who I am and what in the heck am I doing with my life. I am sure of my spirituallity, but I know that it needs help to grow and learn. Some days I am lacking horribly and some days I do nothing but pray. I hope the Blessed Mother doesn't mind my bellyaching, because Lord knows she hears it alot. I don't mean to, but I need to vent alot and she listens so..........
God Bless You! later........Polly

HAPPY 1 BIRTHDAY!!!

Well as I sit here and look back on the day, I am very tired. Just as the twins birthday dinner had begun, Noah smashed his hand in the toy box and we were off to the hospital. Thank goodness they glued instead of stitched it. By the time we got home he was too tired to even look at his toys. Claire on the other hand had a ball. I can't believe how big they are. All the babbles and coos are turning into partly recognizable words. They both have developed quite a temper and do not care at all to let it show. I was told that the first year with multiples is all about survival. We not only survived, we have treasured it as well...........later...Polly

New experiences!!

well the last time I wrote, I was getting ready for the next day thinking same ole'-same ole'. Things were not the same. Somewhere we have picked up a stomach bug. First Bryan had an attack of the chucks and runs then Claire vomited for 24 hours straight only to pass it on to Noah and now Sam is making his stomach home to this bug. I am trying desperately hard to ignore the cramping going on in my own tummy, and praying that I did not unknowingly hand it off to the next unsuspecting family. We have stayed well away from the new baby in our family for fear of an unwelcome visitor in their house.I know how I feel with a sick 1 year old, I can't image doing this with a 2 wk old. Hopefully my major problem is lack of sleep and exhaustion from holding 2 at once. Thank God for good husbands, because I have no doubt that I would be in a lot worse shape if not for him..... Later... Polly

Long time -no write

My how time flies! The twins will turn 1 in 2 wks, and my they are getting so big. There are so many times that I think i need to write down what they are doing but I never do. They love the cabinets. I let them have 1 so they can climb into it and I find them hiding there all the time. Claire is such a character. She dearly loves her daddy. Noah dearly loves Wheel of Fortune. He will watch it for hours. They are still totally opposite and thank God for that because I don't think I could handle them if they were in to the same things at the same time. Now I just run from one thing to the other. Looking back, I can't image having just 1 of them. There have been a few times when things got crazy, but those smiles and kisses somehow make the wild days disappear!!! Later.....Polly

Early morning misery

Well as I sit here the clock hits 4:33 am and my little son is playing in the toy box! I held him in bed for about 1 hour, but he would have no more of it. So while he wears himself out again I will type.
It has been quite a while since I sat down to ponder things and alot of milestones have past. Both babies are toddling EVERYWHERE. They both have teeth and they both love to climb. Noah loves baseballs and trucks, Claire has her first babydoll that she drags around. They are 10 months old and I can't stand to think of them growing up and leaving this age. I think the twin thing is harder now because its hard to hold, nurse and comfort 2 crying toddlers. They are starting to play with each other more, but they are totally different from each other. I am mentally and physically wearing out. I need a solid nights sleep and adult conversation without fighting children and wailing babies. I was told about a job offer the other day, and missed the freedom that comes with that, until I saw my babies smile. Then I was ready to do it all over. Later......Polly

Cool Air!!

As bad as I hate to see summer go, the cooler air is nice! The babies are liking going outside and I am ready to get outside myself. We still have hot afternoons but this is the time I actually don't mind getting up early and setting with a cup of coffee and listening to the quiet. I am looking so forward to the family get together this weekend. I pray it all goes well. I need the closeness to my family. Claire is fussing gotta run... later ....Polly

Time Passes By!

Where does the time go? A few days ago we had to buy new carseats for the babies. They have outgrown their infant seats. Claire has a small tooth sticking up from the bottom gums and Noah is taking "practice steps". They love the bathroom and are always peeking to see if someone forgot o shut the door. They have conquered the kitchen cabinets and love to pull the shelves out of the dishwasher, especially if Kayla is trying to fill it! She gets so uptight about that and they love to hear her fuss. We have "dropped " the bottle, but they still nurse, thank God!! Sippy cups of tea is such a treat and it goes great with puffed Cheetos. They are not the only ones taking strides to grow up. Sam loves pre-k. I think he would go every day if we could afford it. Bryan reads so well and he is going to pick things up easily. James seems to have adjusted well to being held back. I watch him on the playground from my office window and he actually has friends that want to play with him. Jon is in the middle school. For the first time he is having to study and he is not very happy with that. Kayla ia a freshman and looks like a senior. Thank God her maturity level isn't as far ahead as her body is! All my babies are starting to show my age. I wish time would slow down a little........ later......Polly

Where has the time gone?

Where does the time go? A few days ago we had to buy new car seats for the babies. They have outgrown their infant seats. Claire has a small tooth sticking up from the bottom gums and Noah is taking "practice steps". They love the bathroom and are always peeking to see if someone forgot to shut the door. They have conquered the kitchen cabinets and love to pull the shelves out of the dishwasher, especially if Kayla is trying to fill it! She gets so uptight about that and they love to hear her fuss. We have "dropped " the bottle, but they still nurse, thank God!! Sippy cups of tea is such a treat and it goes great with puffed Cheetos. They are not the only ones taking strides to grow up. Sam loves pre-k. I think he would go every day if we could afford it. Bryan reads so well and he is going to pick things up easily. James seems to have adjusted well to being held back. I watch him on the playground from my office window and he actually has friends that want to play with him. Jon is in the middle school. For the first time he is having to study and he is not very happy with that. Kayla is a freshman and looks like a senior. Thank God her maturity level isn't as far ahead as her body is! All my babies are starting to show my age. I wish time would slow down a little........ later......Polly
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YEAH! or NAY!??????

I can't decide if I'm happy that it is school time or not. On one hand I hate that the kids are going back so soon, but the thought of no fighting for hours sounds heavenly!!!! I guess time will tell.......Later....Polly

THOSE DAYS!!!!!!!

Have you ever had one of THOSE days?? We have 7 people big enough to go to the pot in this house and the pot is broke.....
enough said... Later ......Polly

WHY??

Somedays I wonder why?
Why am I so blessed. Why can one momment be very happy then BLAM! all hell breaks loose. Why can't my kids just listen and not fight. Why does school have to start so soon?
I have gone thru the "why stage" with my kids, now it's my turn to ask, WHY?
I hope to get a better answer than I give them......
Later... Polly

God Bless America!!

Happy Birthday America!! No matter how you feel about the war, say a prayer for our soldiers . Last night the good Lord really provided His own type of fireworks and man were they beautiful!
The twins are off and running now. God help you if you get in their way while they are whizzing around in their walkers, or rather,God help your toes!! Noah scoots on his belly like a little worm and Claire crawls by accident. She sort of crawls-sorta drags herself around all over the place. It is amazing how even though you think it's child proof, it's not! They love to put stuff in their mouths and they have no problems taking things from the other one. This morning Claire was standing at the couch and she picks up a piece of paper and stands there without holding anything but the paper. I was excited but sad too. When she realised that she was standing alone, she immediately plopped on her butt. They love to eat and are loving to drink tea from a glass although I'm not real fond of floaters. They are both developing their own little attitudes and personalities. We still look at them and say," WOW! 2 at one time." God never ceases to amaze me! Later...........Polly

Can It Really Be Time???

I look at the twins and freak out! Claire is pulling up to anything that will stand still and hold her and sometimes, well lots of times,she ends up bumping her head as she falls. As round as her body is she should roll like a ball, but she always thumps her head. Noah doesn't really try to stand but he is mobile on his belly. Both babies try very hard to get down the stairs or eat anything laying around. Can it really be time for this already?I mean wasn't it just yesterday they were coming home from the hospital? So far the only great big difference I have found with 2, is that time really passes by without being able to sit and ponder each baby
milestone. You are too busy. I feel like even though I am always there, I miss alot!! ...Later....Polly

Lazy Days of Summer??

I have always heard of the lazy days of summer, but I can't seem to pull one off to save my life. Now that regular ball season is over, we start all star tournaments. I am thrilled at the talent of my children, and I encourage them to play if they want to commit to that, but gosh the running is enough to make you nuts! We practise 3/4 days a week and travel on the weekends. It gets quite expensive and the babies are major home bodies. My house just keeps getting buried under dirty clothes and dishes that we pile up on our way to and from the door. One day I'll look back and think "My where did the time go when my kids were little and played ball?"But you know as hectic as it is now, I don't want that day to come. I don't look forward to them being up and grown... Later..Polly

Yesterdays and Todays

As Sunday fast approaches along with my 12 anniversary I remember back to the me I was then. I don't think I have really changed all that much. I mean I am more appreciative of life, more able to "stop and smell the roses", I realize the importance of my family and most especially my husband. But I am still the same crazy person who goes out of her way to try to make people laugh. I was blessed with an abundance of optimism and can always find something to be positive about, even when all I really want is to cry. My marriage has matured along with my unending love for my husband. I still think about him when he is not with me, and I still get little heart flutters when he walks in the door from work. I have a very hard time staying mad at him even when he P#$$#$ me off. I can't even begin to think of my life without him in it. He is my best friend, my inspiration, my critic, and my support. Neither one of us is perfect, but we are perfect for each other.......Later..... Polly

Contest and Real Life

Well my dear sweet husband secretly entered me in a TV contest for a make-over. I really am not sure if I should be offended or flattered!! I am flattered that he thought of me. Anyway after I received a notice that I had been chosen as a finalist, I started to get a little excited. Never before in my life have I ever won anything!Well I finally did!!! The thoughts of a new outfit, shoes, and a makeover with hair and face not only sounded fun, but it sounded like something I would never do for myself. The camera man followed behind me in the shop where I looked at extremely expensive clothes, jewelry, and purses. You must understand that I hate to shop. I hate to try on clothes and I hate to think of all that money that could be going for a bill or one of the many things the kids have to have. Now this very well dressed women informs me that I have $250 to spend in her shop! All the time I am thinking "Boy that was a cute baby outfit and that dress would be beautiful on Kayla." I quickly find me a very beautiful outfit, jewelry and a $99 purse(can you imagine!!!). The next trip is to the shoe store, where although I only had $50 to spend I enjoyed it much more because it was Shoe Carnival, and they were having a buy 1 get 1 for 1/2 price sale, now I liked that. I got 2 pairs of shoes that both me and Kayla would enjoy and I got Kayla a much cheaper but just as cute purse for her 8Th grade graduation!!! I even bought the kids a king size candy bar each and still have about 5 bucks left on the card!!!! Now that is my kind of shopping!!! Last but definitely the most anticipated was the spa and salon. I left my kids for the whole day for a pampering! when I got there a very sweet lady decided that I was there for the ride, and she could do whatever she wanted with my hair, I didn't care. It would grow back eventually and if it looked crappy the camera would tell all the tri state!!! She was very nice and very talented because my highlights and cut are very easy to manage and look natural. I am pleased. Next, off I go to the spa where I am escorted into a very dimly lit room called the tranquility room. Now I am just an ordinary girl that drinks kool-aid most days with her kids, and I was not prepared for the green tea and herbal dohinkies and the aroma therapy candles and the soothing Chinese music. I started sneezing for a few minutes then quickly succumbed to the lure of sleep. I was then awaken and escorted into a small room where my lunch was served. It was really good, but at first I found myself eating very fast so I could cut up and feed the kids food to them. Wait a minute!!! NO KIDS!!!!! I slowly started to chew and taste my food. Even though I enjoyed the time I started to wish I wasn't alone. My husband had brought me there and left and all I wanted was for him to come back and eat with me. After my meal I was escorted back into the tranquility room and given access to the locker room where I was to change into a robe and slippers. Well I am a big girl and that robe needed a lot more material than it had to cover me. I didn't really care, but that would no longer be the tranquility room if I walked out in that robe!! I am afraid tranquility would have left screaming with anyone else who happened to be there!! A very sweet lady helped me out and told me that she too had no idea what to do because that was her first time too. We spent a little time talking about our kids until I was called back for a facial. Now this was heaven!!! I love a massage! I could do one of those 3 times a day. The lady and I talked about our lives and kids while I fought sleep. I love the pain from a good massage. It is the closest thing to relaxing that I ever get. Now I get to get out of the robe and put on my new duds!! I was taken to another room where they applied my make-up and re-fixed my hair in front of the camera. Then I posed for my "after" shot. My day was done and I was dressed and nowhere to go but back home to my real life. As I said my prayers last night, I thought about my day and how very lonely it was and how very much my family is always on my mind. Now don't get me wrong, I loved to be pampered and if anyone wants to pay for a massage, I'm your girl. But you know the saying about taking the country out of the girl? Well you can take me away from my family and home, but you will never take them out of my heart and mind!!! Later......Polly

Milestones

We have reached new milestones in the twins growth. Both are sitting up by themselves, and eating cereal and baby food, although they would rather have mashed potatoes! They are so different that it is hard to think of them as twins. Each have their own little quirks and they both have no problem expressing their likes and dislikes. Claire is bigger than Noah in every aspect. She tries so hard to crawl and rocks on all fours enough that I know it will not be long til she is truly mobile,Noah is content to roll on occasion and could care less if he gets on all fours or not. Noah is more friendly and laughs very easily at anyone or anything, Claire is more shy and reserved. I think they have stolen the hearts of every person in this house. No one(myself included) can stand to hear them fuss. The best time is morning when they first wake up and are all cuddly and warm and want to be snuggled. Things are quite busy, and the house is a disaster but since these are the last babies for us, we'll just have to live in a dirty house for a while. One year ago this month we were told that there were 2 and we thought, Lord can we do this? We still ask ourselves that but now we add Thank you Lord for these beautiful babies!!! God has truly blessed me by being a mother of 7 wonderful monsters!!! Hope everyone had a Happy Mother's Day (and Happy Birthday!) Later.... Polly

Where has the time Gone!?!

It seems like it has been 4 ever since I wrote but things are kinda bad right now. The death of a family friend has brought back alot of thoughts and tears. I look at the twins and think that they are almost 6 months old and its been almost 5 months since we lost Sharon. We had talked about when they would start crawling and eating solids and how much fun and how hard it was going to be, and here we are at that stage and she is not here. I relied on her knowledge of sickness, and cooking and general everyday common sense to help me "get through" and now I find that since I don't have her I am drawn to my other sister Gale for that knowledge. Several times I have thought about calling her and when I realise that I can't I am almost sick. It is comforting to have her and Dad in Heaven, but man it's hard living without them. Once Charles funeral is over, I will write about the progression of the babies. Right now I am in too much of an emotional mental thing.. Sorry!!!!!
I'll write again later. For those in my family that have not written in a while(AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!) I would love to hear about your trip and how the last bit of school is going!!! Later..... Polly

Sad Day

How horribly sad to hear of the shooting at VA Tech. It is such a traumatic thing for those young people and it makes me fear the safety of my own nieces and nephews as they go about their college lives. It also scares me to think that people can be so depressed and sad that they could take another life so callously. Satan does so many horrible things when he has an opportunity. My family will pray for these families and all the students affected by this tragedy... Later... Polly

Thank Heavens it's Spring!!

Once this cold snap is over, I will be a happy women. I can't wait to put the babies in the stroller and the kids on the bikes and just go walk thru the park. I was really hoping for a sunny Easter day but it was so cold that I didn't dress up the babies. We still had a nice day at mom's. All my brothers and sisters were there except 1. It was nice to be with them after my sisters death. Several neices and nephews did not come, I hate that because it seems that is the only time I can catch up on everyones life. There are so many,(65) that any time together is wonderful. Our whole family now totals around 100. I am feeling the need to be with my remaining sisters alot these days. Boy do I miss Sharon! Life will never be the same. I have babies wailing in the next room. It's nap time. What blessed time of day!!!! Later.. Polly

Lord help me get thru this day!!!

I think I am failing miserably! I can get absolutely nothing done. The laundry and dishes are both getting piles that seem to grow instead of shrink. There is so much clutter in this small space of a house and it just grows. When I finally get a few minutes without a baby in my arms, I just want to close my eyes and sleep. A friend of mine who has twins told me her pediatrician told her that the first year with twins is nothing but survival. You try to survive day to day and let tomorrow worried about itself. The only problem with that is that if I don't do something about tomorrow we are going to have to move out and let the mess and clutter just have the place. My patience with my older kids is shot. I think I expect too much from them, but, at the same time, they don't help out as much as they could. All I know is that something has to give or My mental capacity will. I guess I am just getting a case of mess burn out! I love being a wife and mother. God blessed me with this vocation and I thank Him for that everyday. I am thankful that He doesn't suffer a burnout from my asking for His help alot because I sure heap it on Him everyday. Later.... Polly

Same Stuff, Different Day!!!!

It is amazing how quickly time flies around here! We have now moved into another era with the babies. They don't sleep near as much, and they both know when the other is being held and they have learned how to make it known that they don't like being bored! Claire beat Noah on turning over. Noah is almost there but his shoulder gets in the way! It is unusual for him to be behind, because he has always accomplished new obstacles first! My biggest problem is that they both smile and coo or squeal so durn cute that I have a hard time not stopping to play and talk back to them..Oh well, because of medical reasons, we can't have anymore, so I will enjoy my last as much as possible. Excuse me now while I go play with Claire one on one while Noah sleeps!!! Later.. Polly

Rant!!!

Just when I think I can't wait for summer, ball season starts and I see myself spending the majority of my nights at the park. One in little league, two in rookie league, and one in t-ball all during the same season( and thats not counting practices for each)and you must work 2 concession stands per child. All this plus twins to wrangle!!! I really don't mind, the kids love it, but boy does it wear me out!! With John's work schedule, the chances are good that I will be doing most of this alone. It is good for them to get out and release some energy and they love it so much, not to mention that it makes me proud as punch to see my kids do well. Even though there are times when my kids drive me crazy, I am always proud that in public my kids are well behaved and the same people who make ugly remarks about how many kids I have and "don't I know what causes that?" set there with their spoiled rotten brats and bad mouth their husbands. It makes me proud of my family and Thank God for all the hard times.... I'll get off my pity party soapbox and go to bed now!!!! Later< Polly

What a Weekend !!!!!

I need to recover from the weekend... I should have cleaned my house, I should have done some exercise..etc. I DID NOTHING!!!!! My older kids were gone from Friday afternoon til Sunday afternoon, all I had was the twins. I spent the whole day Saturday just visiting with mom and whomever just happened to come by that day. It was very enjoyable, but now I'm having a hard time getting motivated to do anything. Maybe I need just 15 more min. to sleep... Later ....Aunt Polly

Blessings in Naptime!!!

Hello! Today was a little rewarding because I actually accomplished some housework during the babies very small nap!!!! Sure the twins cried and Sam was entertained by Noggin, but none the less you could see the floor by this afternoon!!! Then I took off to get our family pictures at the mall. They turned out very nice. I must say that I have very beautiful children.
It seems that since Sharon's death, I count my blessings more every day. Funny how a loved ones dying does that to people. Right now I need all the comfort I can get from blessings. I miss her so much! I have picked up the phone several times to call her and I dream about her every night. When I wake up it feels like I have been slammed in the gut by a 2x4. I think I hurt more for Daddy too because losing both seems like it is not real that that could happen in our family. We have been very blessed and I know that it is because of the way we were raised! I pray that I can do the same for my children.... Later!! Aunt Polly

Thank God for bedtime!!!

If I can ever get my password and username memorized, I think I will like this writing stuff!! Right now I am feverishly trying to get all 5 older kids ready for school and bed and wind down the twins so I can have a cup of amaretto coffee and start on the laundry that has invaded my basement. I wonder if I can file an insurance claim on my house, because it looks like a tornado has come in thru the front door and blew the %^$*out of everything and exited out the back!!! Goodnight to whomever reads this, I must go to work... Later!

Everyday Blessings Hiding As Mayhem

This is the first time I have ever done this, so I have no idea what the $%^# I'm doing!!! But I will give it a shot! The real reason I am blogging is so I can have an account to comment on my nephews blog!!!
Things are quite crazy in this house, but I love it! The twins are growing bigger everyday and although I am sad that time is passing so fast, every new development stage is fun and exciting. The only thing that never changes is that there are 9 people in this very small house and I don't get much free time to spend cleaning! That drives me bonkers because when the house is messy that looks chaotic and I can't go to chaotic!!! It is bad enough that all 6 older people can be sitting around 1 crying baby, but I have to quit what I'm doing to care for the 1 crying baby. I need me time, but feel very guilty saying so. I love my family very much, but boy do I miss quiet momments. Oh well it teaches you to NEVER take those times for granted. Well I have a crying twin, so I gotta run!!! Later!! Aunt Polly