Time passes by even though....

My how time has flown. I sat down at this computer to check out Busters blog and realize that I haven't written for quite some time. I would love to be able to set and really write but I can never find the time to enter into my own little world. It seems crazy to think that it has been a year already. It makes me feel ashamed that besides my constant thoughts of Sharon,my life is pretty much the same. I miss her like crazy, but my morning routine is still the same and my day is still hectic as heck. My life has gone on. I can't image how Roy and the kids are taking day to day, I don't want to even think of it. The season is going to be hard. I can't hardly get into the spirit, but at the same time I envy Sharon's opportunity of experiencing Christmas first hand. Some days it is hard to get out of bed but I guess everyone has days like that. Thank God for my husband and kids. Even though I would love to get away sometimes, I also miss them like crazy when I am away from them for even a couple of hours. I also have days when I wonder exactly who I am and what in the heck am I doing with my life. I am sure of my spirituallity, but I know that it needs help to grow and learn. Some days I am lacking horribly and some days I do nothing but pray. I hope the Blessed Mother doesn't mind my bellyaching, because Lord knows she hears it alot. I don't mean to, but I need to vent alot and she listens so..........
God Bless You! later........Polly